Since the birth of Periphaeria Designs my life has been full of surprises, good and bad ones. One could almost think that I am jinxed.
In this entry I wish to be able to explain what I want to tell you, to explain my absence and everything else.
In general life has turned 180 degrees since 1st of March, 2007, and even there has been bad things it’s, in the end, all good.
In spring 2007 I started to feel out of breath when walking, woke up catching breath and was incrediby tired all the time. I went to a doctor and after arguments with doctors and some vigorous testing I got preliminary diagnose of asthma, which was later confirmed.
Year after this I started to sleep 16 hours a day, my skin and hair got dry, started to gain weight, my memory got worse and worse, had no energy not interest to anything nor ability to concentrate.
I knew it was classic example of hypothyroidism, but my doctor disagreed and prescribed anti-depressants because of the “normal range” my thyroid hormone levels were in.
I can’t say that it was all bad, my dose was so high that it would probably had woken the dead even. But, I got some of my energy back. Still, those physical symptoms remained.
During that summer I was blessed and met my now Husband and that, of course, was good for my health, but as I was madly in love only thing I could think of was Him, not PD, stitching or designing.
During that fall I got a job and everything seemed to go swell. And still I didn’t feel like everything was in order with me. I was continuously tired (at this point quitting those anti-depressants actually helped me to feel a bit better), barely had the energy to work and concentrate on our long-distance relationship.
I was sick all the time and every little cold turned into bacterial infection, but no doctor paid any attention to that. Not even after 14 courses of antibiotics in one year. And no doctor or nurse believed me when I told them that I gain weight even I barely eat. They just thought that I am lying – because my thyroid hormone levels were still within normal limits it couldn’t be hypothyroidism in their opinion, even by now my mother had been diagnosed with it.
This March Husband and I got married, after a long fight with bureaucracy and that is when I finally realised that I have to find a good doctor, someone who would be willing to test the thyroid medication with me because I knew that if I have untreated hypothyroidism it may lead to childlessness – and my list of symptoms had got longer and longer, and by then I had about every acknowledged sign of hypothyroidism, just excluding abnormal thyroid hormone levels.
I June I saw an endocrinologist whom I knew understands thyroid illnesses in deeper level and doesn’t religiously obide “normal values”.
And that man saved my life by prescribing me thyroxine based on all the symptoms every other doctor had disregarded!
My dose has been upped during the summer, along that I have slowly begun to feel more alive, and now we seem to have found the optimal medication level for the time being which I can tell from my well-being.
I can’t say I have completely recovered as it’s possible that I have lived over two decades with dysfunctional thyroid, but I am slowly getting there: I sleep less, have evergy to stitch after work at least some days, I lose (!slowly, but still) and can control my weight and… I DESIGN!
Which means that I am back! (Not that I went anywhere, but I hope you can understand that simply surviving through a day has been hard enough for me last two years…
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There will be new desings every now and then (I am still in recovery mode so I try to respect my body with enough rest and low levels of stress), and there will be all kinds of nice little surprises for you, my dear stitchers – and that’s sooner than later.